C.S. Lewis in "Mere Christianity."
It's been a weird day. The boys have been gone several hours to a football game, and Scott and I are home alone. Like I said, it's been a weird day.
I've been in the mood all day to spend money- that I don't have. I imagined hiring out all my undone projects today. After I had scheduled someone to come next week and re-tile the bathrooms, re-carpet our house, and put a fresh coat of paint on all our trim, I dreamed of going to the mall and buying all new bedding for the boys.
But I woke up from my daydreaming and decided that I needed something interesting to drink, so I made myself a chai tea latte. It would have tasted better if someone had made it and brought it to me, but it was good non-the-less.
That didn't seem like quite enough, so I went back to the kitchen and poked around. A bowl of Cheerios. That sounded good- but just a small one, in case something sounded better in a few minutes. And something did- a few pieces of salami wrapped around some black olives, some artichoke hearts, the parmesan cheese off of yesterday's Caesar salad, a small piece of lasagna, and a big glass of ice tea with a wedge of lemon.
You think once my stomach started hurting I would be satisfied, but I wasn't. Scott and I went to Marshall's to look at Christmas decorations. Wow! I needed a lot. The craving in the middle of my chest for whatever I was craving was even bigger now!! What's a girl to do!!!
But by this point in my life I've realized that even if my house looked like Southern Living magazine and I got to eat out every meal every day, I still would not be satisfied.
What my soul longs for is the satisfaction that comes only from God. The prayer that I pray is the same as Moses prayed "Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days." (Psalm 90:14)