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    by Kasia Kedzia

The X Factor
Date Posted: May 7, 2013

There are moments in my life when I think I have all the pieces. In these moments God often likes to rock my boat. Just when I think I know the direction he is taking me I want to start to run ahead only to find myself tripping all over my own feet. Yet, he’s been incredibly gentle with me as he’s been teaching me that part of walking by faith is recognizing that there is always an X factor- a crucial yet unknown factor. My level of trust in God will often expose exactly how I choose to calculate for X.

As I read Timothy Keller’s, Jesus the King, I am reminded of the Jesus I was first called to serve. He is not a God that will be hurried. And as Keller puts it,

“It’s not ‘I will not be hurried though I love you’; it’s ‘I will not be hurried because I love you. I know what I’m doing. And if you try to impose your understanding of schedule and timing on me, you will struggle to feel loved by me.’”

Col1:15-17 “He is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him. He is before all things, and in him all things hold together.”

My theme word for this year has been Hope. As I embarked on my pursuit of hope, in the very short four month span I have seen God test my hope in ways I did not think were possible. Most recently he has been teaching me that when I go to him for help, I will always get far more than I had in mind. However, I will also end up giving more to him than I wanted or expected to give. Sometimes I come to God and I ask for things. I ask for things in my career, for love, for security in one form or another. I want things. Don’t get me wrong there is nothing wrong with wanting these things and others but how much I want them vs how much I entrust what I want to God are two very different things.

Keller uses the story of the dead girl and the sick woman in Mark 5:21-43 to highlight this difference for me. The father came to Jesus with enough faith to want his daughter to be healed from sickness, but Jesus pushed his faith and brought her back from the dead. The bleeding woman wanted healing but she just wanted to touch Jesus and run. Jesus however pushed her to expose herself.

In the beginning of the year I made a big job switch; the position was a long awaited answered prayer, but quickly proved challenging in many ways. I even considered quitting. When the sequester happened I realized the job I had received only weeks before was my saving grace. While on travel for work, six days into my trip I went into the local clinic with what I thought was a stomach bug, but learned I had contracted malaria. Not any old malaria either, one of the worst strains of it. As everyone waited for me to collapse either from the sickness or from the drugs to cure it, I felt fine and was able to not only function, but continue to work 15 hour days and keep a joyful disposition that affected others’ sour moods. The timing of it all astounded me. If I had waited to go to the clinic, the symptoms could have gotten worse very quickly resulting in a lot of suffering. If I hadn’t been diagnosed at the clinic, it could have resulted in my being quarantined or worse, death. Yet, I know God worked through it and I was spared.

Our lives are riddled with a million little moments just like the ones I described above and just like the ones the people of the Bible faced. The message he sends is a call to be patient because things don’t always work out the way we expect them. Sometimes this is a good thing, like the job; other times it’s not so good, like the malaria. However, both serve a purpose and can be used to show God’s power, mercy and love in my life. There will be times when things will be hard and I will be called to give more without knowing what the result will be. It may result in major pain and disappointment in the short-term, but ultimately, in the long-term, it will always result in coming forth as gold.

Job 23:10 “But he knows the way that I take; when he has tested me, I will come forth as gold.”

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Biography Information:
Gods brought me a long way from the New York City Housing Projects. I studied the Bible, repented, and was baptized for the forgiveness of my sins when I was 17 and have been repenting and striving towards heaven ever since. The hardest thing about becoming a Christian at 17 was trusting that God would take care of me, meet my emotional teen needs, and help me overcome my enormous insecurity...what else would a teen girl have trouble with?

Since those first days, I have made it out of the Projects, finished my Masters degree in International Development, and moved  to DC  to work in my field. As a young single Christian woman my struggles today are a little different than they were when I first came to know God, but who am I kidding, not much. It's the every day battle for my heart to be pure before God, to strive to please him, and help others to seek and know Him.

Over my years of a faithful walk with God I have received much grace and compassion and have been blessed beyond my wildest dreams. Through out it all one thing has stayed consistent: God's word. Through His word I have been inspired and it has kept me faithful even when faith seemed like a foreign concept and God seemed deaf to my prayers. I started emailing my Quiet Times which helped me stay accountable as I shared my struggles and fought for understanding. Some wrote back and said they too were inspired and could relate. I hope some of my times can help inspire others who are seeking and fighting just like I am, to get to heaven and take as many as possible with me along the way.

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